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licklesoxyTitle: Stolen Property
Fandom: Doctor Who
Character: Idris
Rating: G
Spoilers: 06x04 (The Doctor's Wife)
Disclaimer: Copyright: Steven Moffat, The BBC
Summary: Borrowing implies that the item will be returned.
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Stolen Property
Most things would - or do? - show anger towards a thief.
I didn't. I don't. Would I one day? The answer will - does - consist of one syllable. No, I am not furious, and will never be, and have never been. I think. No, I know.
Borrowing implies that the item will be returned. In the future, at some point. Not in the past, because that is when the object is taken, or will be taken, or... has already been taken? Perhaps. It's rather confusing, in a way, because if someone attempts to borrow something, but steals instead... at what point does it change from one to the other?
I could say that I borrowed a Time Lord, and that I will one day return him. That would be - will be? - borrowing. But I'm a thief. I was a thief. I didn't return him. I haven't returned him. I will not return him. He is mine; he always has been; he always will be.
Most things could - or should? - show disgust towards a thief.
I'm aware of this. I know all about my own self that ever has been, that is, and that ever will be. I did not feel repulsion when he opened my already unlocked doors. I do not feel he is vile for using me to travel right now. I will not feel disgusted by him at any point in our time lines.
I am his, and he belongs to me. I chose him, and I would choose him every time, whether or not he would want - does want, did want? - to be picked. He was rather mad, though he still is, isn't he? Yes, obviously. A tad insane for running away, and he keeps doing it. He has never stopped; we never will halt our sprint.
He recognises me when blue colours my outer form. He doesn't recognise me now. He will come to terms and realise when I tell him. He will recognise.
I bit him. Oh.
Bit. Bite. Bitten. Which is he, and which was he, and which will he be, when this is finished? After recognition, he will have been bit, truly. Before, he will need to be bitten. During the bite, is when I enjoy the time line the most. Past can be fun, but when it's future it is either anticipated or dreaded. Being in the present means things have yet to happen, and have already happened.
Things are happening? Present is odd; it turns future into past.
Future becomes past. Present creates a path for future. Past equates to an outcome of the present. This equals an action.
I must shake my head to clear my thoughts. I was going off topic. I shake my head to clear my thoughts. I will return to the topic. My head has been physically shaken. I am back on topic.
Are we both thieves? Is he simply borrowing me, and I borrowing him? Stuck in a prison, he will free me. I know this. I have known it for as long as I have known him. I will always know it.
Keeping my thoughts in the present is not easy. I need to try harder. I will? I already am? I believe this would be - is - described as annoying. Only one present thought is in my head, and it is a present one, not focusing on the past particle or the future tense.
My thief is here in front of me. And it feels like the long word... wonderful?
-o-
Fandom: Doctor Who
Character: Idris
Rating: G
Spoilers: 06x04 (The Doctor's Wife)
Disclaimer: Copyright: Steven Moffat, The BBC
Summary: Borrowing implies that the item will be returned.
Stolen Property
Most things would - or do? - show anger towards a thief.
I didn't. I don't. Would I one day? The answer will - does - consist of one syllable. No, I am not furious, and will never be, and have never been. I think. No, I know.
Borrowing implies that the item will be returned. In the future, at some point. Not in the past, because that is when the object is taken, or will be taken, or... has already been taken? Perhaps. It's rather confusing, in a way, because if someone attempts to borrow something, but steals instead... at what point does it change from one to the other?
I could say that I borrowed a Time Lord, and that I will one day return him. That would be - will be? - borrowing. But I'm a thief. I was a thief. I didn't return him. I haven't returned him. I will not return him. He is mine; he always has been; he always will be.
Most things could - or should? - show disgust towards a thief.
I'm aware of this. I know all about my own self that ever has been, that is, and that ever will be. I did not feel repulsion when he opened my already unlocked doors. I do not feel he is vile for using me to travel right now. I will not feel disgusted by him at any point in our time lines.
I am his, and he belongs to me. I chose him, and I would choose him every time, whether or not he would want - does want, did want? - to be picked. He was rather mad, though he still is, isn't he? Yes, obviously. A tad insane for running away, and he keeps doing it. He has never stopped; we never will halt our sprint.
He recognises me when blue colours my outer form. He doesn't recognise me now. He will come to terms and realise when I tell him. He will recognise.
I bit him. Oh.
Bit. Bite. Bitten. Which is he, and which was he, and which will he be, when this is finished? After recognition, he will have been bit, truly. Before, he will need to be bitten. During the bite, is when I enjoy the time line the most. Past can be fun, but when it's future it is either anticipated or dreaded. Being in the present means things have yet to happen, and have already happened.
Things are happening? Present is odd; it turns future into past.
Future becomes past. Present creates a path for future. Past equates to an outcome of the present. This equals an action.
I must shake my head to clear my thoughts. I was going off topic. I shake my head to clear my thoughts. I will return to the topic. My head has been physically shaken. I am back on topic.
Are we both thieves? Is he simply borrowing me, and I borrowing him? Stuck in a prison, he will free me. I know this. I have known it for as long as I have known him. I will always know it.
Keeping my thoughts in the present is not easy. I need to try harder. I will? I already am? I believe this would be - is - described as annoying. Only one present thought is in my head, and it is a present one, not focusing on the past particle or the future tense.
My thief is here in front of me. And it feels like the long word... wonderful?
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Date: 15/05/2011 19:05 (UTC)Your icon is lovely <3
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Date: 23/05/2011 11:22 (UTC)I definitely get a strong sense of Idris here. The scattered nature of her thoughts suit her human appearance in contrast to the calm, collected blue police-box. I like how she always questions. That the fic ends with one is most fitting. And gotta love that underlying steely determination to have the Doctor by her side at all costs.
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Date: 24/05/2011 17:58 (UTC)no subject
Date: 28/05/2011 19:17 (UTC)I could say that I borrowed a Time Lord, and that I will one day return him. That would be - will be? - borrowing. But I'm a thief. I was a thief. I didn't return him. I haven't returned him. I will not return him.
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Date: 29/05/2011 23:36 (UTC)